Will Power and addictions

Okay it was our weekly baseball dinners ... spinach salad and pizza .. I can do this. No dessert temptations too which we sometimes have.

Alas I got my 2 pieces and a big helping of salad. The pieces were small from Zarky's - Romo pizza I think is the name of it. So definitely not as greasy or nasty as the pizza, pizza versions .. but that being said it tasted even better.
I had 900 calories left to stay in my zone ... so no problem - only wanted to use about 500 on dinner ... WELL .... after the 2 pieces I was really good - I felt full and tried to not think about the endless amount of food that was left. I had been really on track all day, I wasn't going to mess it up was I?

Alas - my will power failed me and a second serving turned into a third serving and a fourth serving .. in the end I think I had about 6 pieces of pizza. OOOH the frustration at myself ... and now I feel disgusting. ...but oooh the realization. Food is totally an addition - there's no doubt in my mind. The "off" button on me just sometimes doesn't work and I get carried away ,.. that's why i'm where I am.

Anyways I just had to vent ... because I know I screwed up and hopefully tomorrow is a new day ... and it's about picking yourself back up when you get knocked down.

A 5 day vacation at the cottage is coming up. Trying to decide and plan on how I'm going to ensure I remain on track. I find one slip up sends me into a spiral. I hope to also try and ensure I do some work-outs while I'm there too - that will help!

Stay tuned ...